Sincerely, a girl with heart

I couldnt help myself. I couldnt hold back my tears. Okay i know, it sounds teribly desperate. But who am i? I am just a normal human being with feelings. I aint zombies. I do have feelings. For God's sake, i want you to spend 5 minutes and imagine yourself in my place. Say 'Hi' everyday. Sweet texts every single day. Silly jokes every single day :( And the worst part, I LOVE YOU :'( That line kills me. No im not joking, seriously. You dont have to say that line if you dont mean it. You called me sayang...... i just miss you. So bad. I really do. Indeed. Yes, you can call me DESPERATE. Please do that!! But do remember, you're the one who make me this way. You're the one to blame. Imma sue you if i can. But i cannot....

I can feel the heartbreak when your friend told me that you was just joking. At that moment, i feel like killing myself. You dont have to fvcking say that fvcking I LOVE YOU if you dont mean it. You cant straightly say right infront of my face YOU HATE ME! Dulu aku anggap kau schoolmate je ok. The way you treat me, our skype until 5 Am, the way you called me BABY at the first time... that's the reason i fell in love with you. You dont have right to do this dude :'(

I re-read our conversation on Skype. You said you dont wanna us to be stranger. That's what you said to me 2 months ago. Ok now what is going on? You are the one stranger-ing yourself. You ignores me like we never known each other. What fuckery is this. I am not your toys.

"Dont worry, i akan jaga hati you mcm i jaga hati i sendiri"

Oh really?! REALLY? oh my lord, that was just a sweet line. And im just simply trust that. How idiot.

"Ainun i love you, percaya ni okay sayang"

HA HA HA you are so funny man. I trusted you. And this is how you pay me back? Gosh i'm lovin it. So much.......

One last line.

I miss you so much. I miss our Skype. I miss your texts. I miss your calls. I miss your smile and i miss your Hi. And Milo. And everything. Please call me DESPERATE. At least, aku tak tipu diri sendiri. Farewell.