I know I aint good. I aint beautiful. I aint hot chicks. But i am just a normal human being. Im out from my mother's vagina too. Im deserves to be happy. No. It's not that im not happy with my life. Im happy. Im grateful i still get enough oxygen to continue breathing but.... somehow it is sad when your parents didnt have time to spend with. All they know is work. I know it is for my own sake. For my own goodness. But urgh i dont know what to say. Im just sad and kinda jealous to see my friends. Went to vacation with their family, snap zillion pictures with their family, shopping and whatever. It's okay. Bersyukur lah Ainun. They pay for your internet bills, topup and stuffs.
Huh. Talk about feelings. This unknown feelings is haunting me. Really. I cant handle it. Okay maybe bcs im too depressed. Overthink too much. I can cry easily nowadays. My friends do care about me. But im just to snobs to share my problems with them. When they ask me whether im okay or not... the only answer that pops out is 'im okay' . Can you see how snobs i am? Too snobs. Well to be frank, i need them. But when my mouth was about to tell them my problems, my heart will says 'dont' . Dear friends, the only way to know what is my problem is force me! But seriously. I love to share my problems with him. I just... i dont know why. He knows how to make me smile and laugh :') I love you.
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